Day 3

Hello, Readers!

I am sorry for always posting these so late. But, wanted to post and check in. I am still doing the thirty-day challenge and I am already feeling a difference! I am getting more energy especially with changing my diet as well.

It was still hard to complete the run! But, I got it done. Slowly getting better every day. Soon, going to start going to the gym to exercise.

I hope everyone has a happy Tuesday!

Thank you for reading! See you soon!

 

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Day 1 and 2

Hello, readers! So yesterday I posted pictures of my body as my starting point. What I forgot to do is put up a post about how the workout went and how I am feeling today!

So today, I woke up sore and my abs and core are burning like all hell. But, I feel good. I am feeling confident about this new outlook on life. I am ready for a change. The workout went smoothly and I was able to complete it easily.

Today, was another story. I just finished the second workout and man. I am hurting. I could barely finish the run. My abs were hurting really bad. I finished it but it took me longer than 25 minutes to finish. A lot of stopping and catching my breath. Also, stretching out my body. I am feeling good right now. I am feeling confident in myself.

 

So day one and two are completed. I am ready for anything that comes at me in the next week!

Thank you for reading! See you soon!

P.s. If you are doing a challenge, what are you doing? Are you enjoying it? Comment! 🙂

My Starting Point

Hello, my dear readers. So, I thought I would post something a little different. I decided to post pictures of my starting point in my adventure of working out, weight loss, eating healthy, and my body changing. I decided to do this to help myself keep track of my gains and my losses.

So! Here we go! I will start with pictures and then add in some talking! Please ignore the room. I have not had a chance to clean up some of the laundries that are on the floor. Anyways.

After weighing myself this morning, I am a hundred and nineteen pounds. I am five foot two. My butt is 38″, my hips 36″, my stomach 32″ and my bust is 32″.

Alright. SO this is me. This morning. I weighed myself, I took measurements and I also took these pictures. I was really excited to do this, but that slowly turned upside down. Because once I had taken the pictures, I had to find a way to make myself look better in them. But, I am not sucking in my stomach and I am not flexing. This is resting form of what I look like. I am proud that I am able to post something like this. Because like I said. This is my starting point.

I am super self-conscience about my body (who isn’t nowadays) and I would have never done this about 2 years maybe 3 years ago. I thought my body was disgusting. Not going to lie, somedays I still have that thought. I have come a long way from hating my body to where I am today. I am comfortable with my body. Do I wish that something would change? Yes. Am I doing something about it? Yes. Do I wish these results would happen sooner? Yes!! But, I am willing to work to get the results I want.

Now. I know a lot of people will look at this post and be like. OH my god (or goodness) she isn’t even fat. Why is she doing this? I will tell you why. I was a serious athlete growing up. All my life. I played competitive sports. I was in shape and had an amazing body. I look at pictures of myself when I was 14 to now- six years later. I hate how I let myself go.

I did not let myself go though. I had a sports injury. I dislocated my knee to the point that I needed surgery on it so that I could walk straight. Or go a day without it dislocated from me just swinging my legs out of my car and hitting it lightly against my steering wheel. I had to stop playing contact sports (which is where I got my body from and my will to work out) and had to wait for surgery. Once I had surgery, I had to do rehab to teach myself to walk again. I am right side dominant, which so happens to be the knee that had the surgery on it. I had to re-learn how to walk supporting myself on my left leg, not my right. Which took a lot of time because I am a stubborn person, and I think my way is the best way.

Fast forward to 5 months after my surgery and rehab, my depression kicked in. I did not want to do anything, I didn’t want to go out, I didn’t even want to be seen. I thought I walked with a limp, thought my life had lost purpose because I could no longer play contact sports. I thought I would never go to college because I would never be able to get scholarships. Everything had gone away that I held up on a pedestal. I stopped working out. I kept going to my therapist appointments, although she could tell that my heart wasn’t in it. To me, this injury was the end of the world.

Once again fast forward to 1 year ago. I was at the heaviest I had ever weighed in my life. I hated my body. I hated who I was, I hated how miserable I was. I hated everything about myself and would try to make other peoples lives miserable to just be miserable with me.  Until my best friend dragged me to the gym. He told me that I needed to work out what ever frustrations I was having and then apologize to everyone I was hurting. So, that is what I did. Even though, the first two weeks of working felt great. I felt like I could do it. Keep going. I would make excuses. My knee hurts. I can’t this week, school is too much, or work is too much. My heart was not into working out.

Fast forward to a month ago. My ex broke up with me. I blamed myself for not being pretty and not being thin. It took me about two days to come out of this slump and decide that I was going to change it. So, I set up an appointment with my therapist to see what kind of shape my knee was in, she would set me up with a routine to help me with my knee, and a workout routine that would focus on everyone I wanted to work on, with little to no pressure on my knee. But, still doing everything. I will have to work in moderation. But, I am ready to change my body.

I want to share it with everyone because everyone has their breaking point. Mine was my ex-breaking up with me and finally not letting my injury be my excuse. So this is my starting point. I hope this is inspiring for someone. Or if it’s just a platform for myself to ramble on.

Thank you for reading! See you soon!

 

Yesterday.

Yesterday was a hard day. Work was not easy, pulling myself out of bed last night was not easy, being aware of my surroundings yesterday was not easy. Having little to no support from myself to accomplish anything. I am very aware that I am not the perfect person, no one is. I felt yesterday was going to be hard. I just thought- I could push through it and not have to worry about being completely alone.

In a month, I will have been hanging out with the most amazing person that I have had the chance to meet. I never thought just being friends with someone would be so much on my mental health. I am happy now. I am the happiest I have been in a long time.

He makes me want to do things that I wouldn’t have done on my own. Go out partying, hanging out with friends, meeting new people, going walking almost every day (when he isn’t working) and just making feel relaxed in his presence.

I have mentioned to him about my past. About my recent breakup and not wanting anything anytime soon. Just wanting a friend. I know it sounds cliche, but he understands. He is willing to wait until I am ready for a relationship and if I want a relationship at all with him. Out of the experience, he has met a new friend. He is happy with it. Yes, he is human and said, that he would prefer if I was his girlfriend but would suck it up if that was something I didn’t want.

The more I hang with him and the more I am with him and talking, hanging out, laughing, and even the awkward silences. I want to be closer to him. I want to grab his hand and I want to hold onto it with all my might. Not letting go. From earlier posts, I have said I believe in soulmates and people who come into your life are not accidents. They are important and those signs should not be ignored. At times, I believe that it is true. But, I want to change my statement a little bit.

I believe in soulmates- but I believe that I am naive and young. I think I am in love with the idea of being loved. I do not want to get hurt in the long run but I also want that feeling of having a safe and warm place to go to when I have days like yesterday. I love the idea of having someone for me and only me (because I do not like to share.) I do believe that millennials (which I am) are given a bad reputation for wanting things just given to them. If I could have one thing given to me, why not my happiness? If I go into this relationship with an open heart and mind, shouldn’t that be my right? Should I be able to be happy? No matter how long it’s been since my breakup? or what everyone else would say? I should just focus on my happiness right? And, he makes me happy. Should I just take the leap of faith? I have been thinking about this since I meet him. I thought I should not be allowed to have fun because I just broke up with my ex. That I had to have those feelings of loss and grieve for a relationship- that didn’t have any passion or a way of moving forward.

I have been thinking a lot. I have been thinking way too much.  I wanted to write it down because once it’s out of my head. I will stop thinking about it so hard. I was scared to write this post because I knew millions of people would see it at some point. But, I thought that there had to be other human beings who are going through these feelings or have gone through these feelings. Hopefully, by writing these feelings it will help someone and will help me to figure out just what I want.

Thank you for reading. See you soon!

Today Is A New Day

Hello!

So, like in my other post, I talked about how I am ready to start working on my new chapter in my life. I am ready to accept myself. I am out of shape, I am tired, and I am tired of being tired. I am ready to accept those things. I am ready to change them.

Starting today, I will be starting 30-day challenges to help myself get back into shape and to also start eating properly again.

My 30-day challenge that I will be starting today is;

  • 30-day health challenge which is; day 1: chew 30 times day 2: Don’t eat past 7pm Day3: Eat vegetables at every meal. Day4: Cook at home Day5: Focus on posture. Day6: Laugh and Smile. Day7: Take the stairs. Day 8: Walk to work. Day 9: Sleep for 8 hours. Day 10: Stretch. Day11: Avoid salt. Day12: Don’t eat refined sugar. Day 13: only drink water. Day14: Eat what your body is asking for. Day 15: Eat 6 small meals a day. Day 16: Find a supplement. Day17: Give up weighing yourself. Day18: Don’t deprive yourself. Day19: Avoid trans fats and saturated fats. Day 20: Drink herbal tea. Day21: Try a new exercise. Day22: Buy a herb plant. Day23: Don’t eat processed foods. Day24: Use an SPF. Day25: Take a cold shower. Day26: Make your own granola. Day27: Eat until you’re satisfied. Day28: Don’t go shopping while hungry. Day29: Eat whole carbs. and Day30: Eat with pleasure. (Cheat day.)
  • Working out Challenge;My own 30 Days Full Body Challenge! Please try it!

This is the full body challenge that I will be taking on starting today as well. I am hoping to post every day and add comments to it. Comment on how I am feeling.

Alright. Well, that is all I have for right now. I hope to talk to you guys soon!

Thank you for reading. See you soon!

Welcoming Myself Back

Hello, guys!

Sorry for a long time no talking. I got really busy with life and was not able to make it on here to write just about it.

Let’s see where to start. I got a new job and a new fling in the process of that. (No. it’s not a workplace relationship.) Everything about this is different and I am ready for the difference. I am ready for the new chapter in my life. I also am ready to start treating myself first in this relationship. I have told him that already and already he is starting to respected.

Well, I am back and I will posting a lot more soon! Maybe tonight!

Alright, thank you for reading! See you soon!

Some More Good News

Hey guys,

Yesterday, was a pretty exciting day for me. I woke up and thought about doing nothing. But, I decided that I would start looking for full-time employment. I sent out some resumes and was not looking for someone to answer me back right away. Within 20 minutes of placing my resumes out into the world. I had four interviews lined up for the next three days.

So, I go to the first interview yesterday and the job was perfect. Benefits, good pay, I get to set up my own room, I have an assistant- teacher, and I get a whole new facility. Best part is that I start working next Monday for training. It happened so fast. I have to give my notice on Monday. I need to give my notice and all that but. I am excited.

 

The last two days, have been hard and they have been great at the same time. Having to get over my break up, adult up and keep moving on with my life. I got to love the new me. So working out, friendship and working will be my new life. I want to work hard to make sure I get what I deserve. I want to make sure that I will have enough in life to make me happy. I don’t mean money. I want to live my life. I will work hard for everything I earn and I will play even harder.

 

Thank you for reading! See you soon!

Starting Today

Hey Guys.

So, starting today I will be starting my 30-day challenges. These can range from anything from eating to exercising, to drawing to anything. So, I have made a list of on a piece of paper and will be randomly choosing things to do for the next couple of months.To keep me busy for the next little while.

The reason why I wanted to do the 30-day challenges is that it will help to keep me tasked orientated and another reason is that it will be easier to follow my progress this way.

Every day, I will make a post about what I did, when I did it, how I did it and what the end result was. This will help to keep me focused on my end goal, which ultimately is to complete the challenge. If it is a fitness challenge that I decide to participate in for the month. Every week, I will post results of working out.

I wanted to ensure that with the working out, that I actually accomplish some goals. Make sure, that I am completing what I started.

Today is Saturday the 12th, of August – 2017. I have four months left before Christmas and New Years to start, I wanted to feel better about myself. I want to gain more control over my life. And I want to complete something to the fullest of my ability.

So, Starting Today. It will be a new me.

Thank you for reading! See you soon!

Good News to Cover the Bad

Hey everybody!

I am official extremely happy today. So, I started my search for full time work now that I am done my schooling. I am super excited to say, that after posting eight resumes online with potential employers, I now have two interviews set up with 15 minutes of posting. 🙂

I am excited because it means that I will be starting a new chapter in my life. I will be working. I will pay off my debts. I will get to move out and then I have no idea where my life will go.

My first one is today. So I am preparing for that. But, I wanted to take some time to post. I wanted to share my excitement. Hoping to bring some excitement to someone else’s day!

So on that note. I hope your friday is full of excitement and joy!

 

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Finally Home

Hey Guys!!

I am finally back from my trip from Newfoundland. It was a long month. But, I am back. And it felt so good to sleep in my own bed last night.

Sooo.. Good news and bad news situation here.

So my long term boyfriend of a year and a half broke up with me while I was away. Over text and out of province. So now in my own mind, I think he is a coward of a man. He broke up with me because he wanted his freedom. I don’t even understand what that means. All I know is that for the first time in a long time. I felt so lonely in my bed. Knowing that I could text someone to come over when I am scared. Or just to talk to someone who knew me better than my own parents. It hit me hard.

But, I have decided that I am not going to let that defined me. I will become better for myself. I will let my colours shine. I will be the woman who is independent and will strive for greatness. I am proud to say that I will do all of this myself, for myself, and not for anyone else.

So that was the bad news. The good news is that I will be posting pictures of my trip with a small amount of commentary about what I got to see. I am super excited to show these photos. I am even thinking about moving out east because I fell in love with the ocean again. Like I did when I was a child.

I also got a lot of reading done on this trip, and thinking about making a couple of posts about the books and put a couple of reviews on 🙂

Alright. So, I believet  that would be enough for my first post back on the site.

Thank you for reading! See you soon!